Sunday, 10 September 2017

Keep on Hoping, Keep on Wishing but Most of all Keep on Believing

Last week I went to A&E because I really thought there was something wrong with  my heart. It felt like someone was sitting on my chest, crushing me and making it hard for me to breathe. I called my GP but I was told to go straight to A&E. I was given a red card on entry which meant I was seen straight away. They put me on a ECG monitor and checked me over. Then I was to wait to see a Doctor. As I was waiting over two hours I figured that they'd worked out that I was not having a heart attack.

I saw the Doctor and after lots of questions and further examination, and a consult with someone higher up the decision was that my pain was due to my condition, Stiff Person Syndrome. There was nothing they could do for me and I had to see my consultant for treatment. They couldn't contact my consultant so that's up to me, but I have an appointment in two weeks so I'm not sure they will see me any sooner.

For now I just have to deal with it an accept that this pain is yet another one I am going to have to get used to.

I also have been getting pain in my arms and hands, getting dressed has been really awkward. Again, I've been told it's due to my SPS which is progressing. I was affected from my waist down, now it's from my neck down. No, from my head down because I also get triginemal neuralgia which is another symptom of SPS and affects my face.

My first reaction to the news was to panic. I sobbed. I don't want it to progress so soon, I knew it would eventually but it's not even been two years yet. A lot of people with my condition (which is not a lot really because it's so rare) have died within three years. The positive side to this news (for me anyway) was that they were not diagnosed in time and did not receive the right treatment. I'm extremely lucky to have been diagnosed so quick, and there are treatments available, so I'm still hopeful. What I am worried about it my consultants lack of concern, he didn't even follow up to see how my last treatment (in June) went. I'm going to have to be firm with him when I see him next. I can no longer wait six months between appointments, if he's too busy to fit me in then I will see someone else.

So after my self pity, (I really don't want to lose my hands and arms, if my legs don't want to get better I'll deal with that but I can't lose my upper limbs, I just can't) I've decided that I'm going to bring out my fighting spirit. I've researched all the treatments that might work and I want to try them until I find one that does work. Of course, I would have to get the rarest form of an extremely rare condition, which means my consultant will have fight for the treatments, but I'm determined not to give in.

I also need to be pro-active. I have let my diet slip again and I do get lazy. Activity causes me pain, but if it's the only way to keep my body doing what I want it to do then I need to be more active. I will walk more, I'm thinking of getting some of those comfortable crutches that support the arm so they don't feel all the stress of holding me up. I have a friend who is great with alternative medication and although she's been having a rough time this year with her own issues, I think she's ready to start advising me again now. I am also in contact with other sufferers which helps a lot.

Sometimes I think that, you, my readers, get fed up of me harping on about my condition. But, this is my place and sometimes I just need to share. It makes me feel better, writing things down can be so cathartic and sharing my story may help someone else in the future. I know that reading another sufferers story as helped me, she's into her 16th year and it's been really rough for her, but now she has found the right treatment that works for her and is enjoying life again.

Just a couple of weeks ago my wish would have been to walk again. Now, that's just a dream, a bonus. My wish now is that I can stop this condition from continuing it's progression.


























One thing is for sure, I won't give up. I haven't tried half the treatments that are available yet, and as much as I despise the thought of being on medication for the rest of my life, if it gives me more life then I will take it. I have children who need me. My husband needs me. And I don't want them to be my carers I want to be the best I can and the only way to do that is to fight this illness and not let it get the better of me. It won't win, I will! 




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A little Note About Positive Reviews on Raisie Bay



Some people only write reviews when things go wrong with products, which is good because it lets people know that there could be potential problems. I've also seen negative feedback with say things like, I had to return this item because the colour did not suit me...is this useful?

I write reviews on most items I buy because I like to give genuine feedback. If I have a genuine problem with a product I will write my review in the appropriate place.

I write reviews on my blog too, but they are mostly positive. Why? Because I only write reviews for the things I've loved. If I don't love them I let the person who sent me them know with details why and then let them decided if they would rather me write a negative review or not write one at all. It's always the latter.

This is my blog, my place and I'll let you know about the things I love. If you want to find out what other people have hated about the product then you will need to look elsewhere.

My reviews may all be positive, but they are still genuine.
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