Should I stay or should I go?
This week has been a little out of the ordinary as I’ve been out of the house a lot more than usual.
On Monday we had to pick up my eldest from her work and take her to another hospital, it would have taken her an hour and half on the bus but we managed to get there in half hour by car.
On Tuesday I had my hospital appointment, such an awkward time 3.20pm right as the younger kids leave school. So hubby had to leave me there and go back for kids before coming back to pick me up.
Wednesday, it was eldest son’s turn. I had to take him to the bank and to pick up a parcel. He doesn’t get out much either, and doesn’t like going out without me.
Thursday I managed to rest and not go out, but I didn’t mind being stuck inside after such a busy week.
I do find it difficult going out and I tend to avoid it if I can. But I also get cabin fever staying in all the time. I think I’ve coped well this week, I’ve not suffered too much from going out. In fact the evening have been okay, it’s when I get into bed that the pain starts and I can’t get to sleep. My consultant has told me to increase my night time medication which does help me sleep. I’m going to do it tonight when I know I don’t have any early morning commitments tomorrow and I don’t have to worry about the effect lasting through the day.
I have decided that I need to get out more. It will become more difficult when it gets colder but as long as I wrap up warm I should be okay. (Although I’ll still need to avoid rain as much as I can.) I have not been to the local shops in ages. I used to pop over there all the time and all the shop keepers knew me, but now it’s hubby they have to deal with. So getting over the shops more is in the plan.
Also, I would like to do some supermarket shopping each week. I can’t do a full shop, it totally wears me out, but I could do a top up shop or go for fresher meat and vegetables than I get in my delivery. Honestly, some weeks I can order five different types of meat and fish and they are all due to go out of date in three days…so I have to freeze some and it just doesn’t taste the same after being frozen.
I would also like a day out with hubby each week, maybe an National Trust property, or a market, or a pub lunch. Without the kids, just the two of us, sounds good! Maybe we could even just go down to the park and take my rollater with a seat so I can practice some outside walking.
I’ve already planned a day out with the kids for the half term break, we are going to carve pumpkins at a local farm. I think I’ll pick one of our local National Trust places for more activities and a second day out. The kids like to vegetate in the house too, but getting out and about is so much better for them and creates so many lovely memories. Most of my (very few) memories of my Dad are ones when he took me out for the afternoon. The park, the pub (With garden) and the bluebell woods, I remember them so well despite him passing away when I was only 8 yrs old. I want my kids to have those memories too.
So, what do you think, would you be happy if you were stuck indoors day after day? Or would you push yourself to get out more even if it was uncomfortable and caused you further pain? I already know how I feel.
I shouldn’t stay, I should GO GO GO!