Don’t look forward, look back. Now, that is not my normal advice. For every step of life you shouldn’t dwell on the past but on the future. Keep on striving for what you want, there is always room for improvement and you have to make the best of your time on this planet.

In my own case, why should I look back on the past where I could walk and do so many things I can no longer do. I should look forward, think of how I can heal, think of how I can be better again.

But in this case I’m looking back, simply as a time scale. You see, at the moment I feel like I’m stuck in a 70 year old body, the pain, the immobility, the inability to live a normal life. I’m not 70 though, I have 18 years to go until I am 70. But 18 years doesn’t sound a lot does it, it will pass in a flash and if I even make it that long I’m going to be feeling 70 for a very long time. I look at friends and peers and think that they don’t look so aged as me, they are still enjoying life to the full, still working, still having fabulous holidays, still doing all the things they did before and even more because their kids are all grown up (or growing up quickly.)

So, I’m looking back.
Let me see, 18 years ago I was a single parent of two youngish children. I was working full time and juggling everything a single mum does. I was trying to date, whenever I could get  a babysitter that was. Then my world exploded, exactly 18 years ago, and I almost lost everything including my sanity. I did lose my job and almost lost my home, I certainly lost my family apart from my two children and one of my brothers. It was a very low time for me indeed.

Then over the next two years I began to build things up again, I met my current husband, we started enjoying life again. I went on to have three more wonderful children and we moved from a very crowded small house to the lovely big house we have now. We built up to a stable and happy family life. Yes, we had our ups and downs but doesn’t everyone? 18 years ago I was rock bottom, but now it seems like a lifetime ago.

It only took me two years to get out of that awful place I was in 18 years ago. If I can improve my health and my life in the next two years then I will have plenty of time to carry on enjoying my life before I become a 70 year old in a 70 year old’s body. In fact, there are many of 70 year old’s and even older having a good life.

I’m going to fight this, I’m going to fight for a better life.
I know what I have to do and I’m going for it.
I’m not waiting for my miracle to happen, I’m going to make it happen.

I’m looking back because 18 years ago life was shit and I made it so much better.
I’m looking forward because I can feel 70 in 18 years, I’m not going to give in to feeling it now.


School Runs and Shopping Trolleys
Debs Random Writings
Naptime Natter
Monday Stumble Linky

My photos this week are of the bunch of flowers that my brother and sister-in-law bought me.

Today we are off to lunch with them. Do you think they know I’ve won the lottery?

(Just kidding!)

I think they are just trying to brighten up my week.




Sunday Snap


I was asked if I’d like to review a piece from Kaya Jewellery and couldn’t wait to get choosing. I took special care in picking out the piece I wanted and now I can offer you the same opportunity too. Read on for a fabulous competition where you can win a £40 gift voucher to spend at Kaya Jewellery.

I love how Kaya Jewellery focus on the special bond between a mother and her children and you can see it here in the Mother and Daughter collection. There is also a selection for son’s too, even brother and sister sets, how charming is that.
With having three children I did think it would be difficult to choose but then I remembered that Star turns thirteen this year. Yes, my baby is going to be a teenager! To mark this special occasion I have chosen a beautiful necklace just for her. I remember when I turned thirteen my Mum bought me a silver necklace, it was a little Dusty Bin from the television show 321. So, maybe this can become a family tradition?
I choose to call Star her nickname because that’s what she is, a shining star. With all she’s been through already in her life she is always smiling and making the best of things, and she refuses to change for anyone. So the first thing I looked for was a star and I found a pretty star necklace. Next I was able to add a pretty pink swarovski pearl before choosing what to engrave. On the front I have had her first name and on the back ‘our star.’
The necklace arrived within a couple of days and was packaged in a pretty box. It was really beautiful and I’m so glad I chose it. I’m sure that Star is going to love it too.
Now it’s your turn to choose a piece of jewellery that you could win in my latest give away. It’s easy to enter via the widget below and you can gain an extra entry by telling me in the comments which piece of jewellery on Kaya you would like to win. (If you are the winner you will be allowed to change your mind and buy whatever you like with your voucher.)
Good Luck!

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On Monday, Star was sent home from school. She didn’t go in on Tuesday and just lay on the sofa all day. Then on Wednesday she had a hospital appointment that she really couldn’t miss.

So Wednesday morning.we set off to the hospital only to find her consultant was running late. We had to wait two hours! The time passed fairly quickly though and Star was great at waiting, in fact she was more patient than her Dad. Then we had a good chat with her consultant. While in his room we saw some post op x-rays that we hadn’t seen before, so hubby grabbed a quick pic. It’s hard to believe that it all started when she was only seven years old. My little girl has been through so much and yet still carries on smiling. Her consultant was a little surprised at how much she had grown in the last year. I think she’s surprising all of us, she’ll be taller than me soon and she’s only twelve.

Star’s x-ray, this is how her spine is connected to her skull!

Thursday she was back at school. She’s been having some problems with some of the kids at school teasing her and getting very upset. The school have been great about it and have told her that there are loads of things they can do to help. The first step has been to move her to a different form class, one that is quieter. So, on Thursday she went into this new class and came home really happy. I’m hoping that things work out for her. We sometimes feel so close to thinking that she’s not going to make it through mainstream school. I so hope she does but when things get bad I can see it all falling apart. But my girl keep soldiering on. That’s why she’s my Star!

The Reading Residence

I love a good bargain and I’m always on the look out for special offers. As I do most of my shopping online I always shop through Top Cashback. If you’ve not heard of it then you are missing out! Top Cashback is a cash back site that offers you cash in return for shopping at your favourite stores through them. They even have a gadget you can use which gives you a little notification if you can receive cash back from the site you are on. A great little reminder! Then all you have to do is click Top Cashback and it will take you back to the page you were on and when you purchase something you will earn a little  money back.

I use Top Cashback all the time and currently have received nearly £600 in return for shopping after clicking through them. When you want to withdraw your money from Top Cashback it’s really simple and you can do it at any time.

I’ve been sent some special offers from Top Cashback to share with you.

The links in this post are all affiliate links which means I will earn a little money if you take up the special offers, or join Top Cashback. This will make no difference to your cost or offer.

First you need to join Top Cashback  (please note:  these offers are for new members only)

Now for your offers!

£15 Cashback on Lulu Guinness makeup bag

New members purchasing at Look Fantastic get £15 cashback.
Expiry Date: 11/02/2018 23:59

£15 Cashback at Superdrug

New members purchasing at Superdrug get their money back up to £15
Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

Free Benefit Mini after cashback

New members purchasing at Benefit get their money back up to £13.45. Enouh to cover the cost of a mini product + delivery.

Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

New members purchasing one Impact Whey Protein for £10 (after using TCB10 voucher code) + £2.95 delivery would receive £12.95 cashback.

Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

£15 cashback at Gymshark

New members purchasing at Gymsharks get £15 cashback on a £15+ spend
Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

£15 cashback at Wilko
New members purchasing at Wilko get their money back up to £15
Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

£15 cashback at Morrisons on a £40+ spend
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Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

Free Takeaway after cashback
New members get their money back up to £15
Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

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Expiry Date: 31/01/2018 23:59

Raisiebay is not responsible for any of the offers here. Please read instructions carefully and take note of the Terms and Conditions applied by Top Cashback. 
I hope you enjoy these offers, let me know if you’d like me to bring you more.