one morning this week I got up just after sunrise and the trees at the bottom of my garden looked so beautiful. They had a gorgeous bronze glow. I couldn’t capture them perfectly with my phone, but I still think they look like wonderful Autumn trees.
I’ve had a difficult week with my hospital treatment and awful side effects. It’s left me feeling pretty down. But I also feel like these Autumn trees, withering and dying and looking so old. Next spring these trees will be back to life with gorgeous greenery. Sadly, I won’t be regenerating. I’ve reached another birthday, another year older and trust me, it’s true what they say. Life is so short. I’m feeling so old today.
We had a party food dinner last night which was nice. I’ve had a couple of presents. I just want to forget about it now. I’m not expecting anything else. Last year I spent my birthday at the light switch on at Bournville which was lovely, and then we went out for a family meal. This year I decided to skip the lights because of the crowds and I had a migraine. There has been no mention of going out for a meal, but then I can’t take us in the car and do the two journeys like Graham did last year so that’s our of the question.
It’s also my 7th wedding anniversary today. It’s kind of hit me a little hard. 22 years ago we got together on my birthday, then we got married on my birthday. Now, he doesn’t even live here any more. I know a lot of people think they should keep their private life private, but sometimes I think sharing is more healthy. At least people will understand what’s going on and how I feel. I’m not looking for sympathy. I guess I’m just an open book. I have so much going on in my life, it seems like I’m forever complaining. But honestly, I have the best kids and I know I am blessed. I live for them. The sentiments they wrote in my birthday cards made my heart sing. It’s all for them now.
Hi Anne, I can relate to some of your reflections, especially about looking at the tres, and knowing they will be regenerating, but … I know I have been trying to make the best of the good things, and play down the less good … sometimes it even work! Haha Wishing you well
The trees really are beautiful, they look like real Autumn trees.
Sending love, hugs and birthday wishes. It sounds like a tough week for you. Sometimes sharing can be a good thing, to get things off your chest and just out there so you don’t feel like everything is on you and bottled up inside! x
I hope that this week treats you better. I like to think of blogging as an open diary, and it’s okay to share. Your cards are beautiful as well. Wishing you a brighter week ahead.
-Stephanie
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Sending belated birthday wishes Anne. Sorry to hear you’re having a tough time – sending hugs. X
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Sharing is good for all of us. Your week has left a lot to be desired, but your loving children are a true gift. Sending you warm thoughts and hugs. #MMBC
Happy belated birthday!
It sounds like a tough day and it is totally understandable why you feel like that. Thank goodness for amazing kids who write beautiful things in your cards! x
Such beautiful snapshots of the trees, Thanks for sharing and for linking up with #MySundaySnapshot.