I wasn’t sure whether my word should be dreams or nightmares!
I’m taking medication that gives me the most weird and lucid dreams. Then on top of that I’m on a high dose of steroids which also affect my sleeping patterns. This means night time has become rather strange and disturbed.
Let me try to describe a couple of the dreams I’ve had this week.
I was lying on a cold floor in a dark cellar, there was barely any light but I could see a dark shadow across the room. The shadow came closer and started to cover me. I felt I could barely breathe and my body became stiff. I woke up and I was in a complete body spasm from my ribs to my toes. My legs were actually risen off the bed I was so stiff. I was terrified, but I knew I had to calm down because my breathing was becoming strained. Thankfully I did manage to cam myself with breathing techniques and eventually my body followed releasing me from the spasm.
This one is a little weirder and I don’t remember it very clearly. I don’t know how or why but I was sharing a very large bed with several women, we were all together for some kind of sleep experiment. The bed was very lumpy and I complained that if the woman next to me could just move over a little then I ‘d be able to get comfortable. The women next to me began arguing that I wanted special treatment because I was disabled and really started to have a go at me. I woke up feeling quite sad.
I always wake up from a weird dream and then I find it really hard to go back to sleep again. The dreams that imitate my illness are the worst, but I still have nice dreams too, they are just harder to remember. The dreams stick around in my mind all day and I guess they have dominated my week.
Edit: Last night I remember two dreams, In one I was diving off a very high building with a parachute. I remember waiting to jump and not feeling scared, but I don’t remember actually jumping. In the other dream I won a family holiday to Florida! Only I couldn’t tell anyone because I knew I wouldn’t be able to get travel insurance. (I guess this is something that has been on my mind recently and just turned up in a dream.)
I’d love to hear about your dreams too.