Apprehensive – Word of the Week

This week I am feeling apprehensive. I could say I was feeling fear, or anxiety, or that I’m terrified of what the future may bring. Actually, I like to be more positive, so pushing the more horrible feelings aside, I’m going with apprehensive.

We heard from Star’s consultant. Yay! At last! He told us she would be admitted sometime in the next six weeks. First she will have another manipulation under a general anaesthetic and another halo will be applied. Then one week later they will take her to theatre again and put a metal plate fixed with tiny screws into her spine. Into the back of her neck.
It’s such a lot for a little girl to go through.
I don’t want her to feel any pain, I don’t want her to suffer, I just want her well again.
So, it’s good news that they are finally doing something to help her, but at the same time I’m apprehensive about it will all go, how it will all turn out in the end. It’s going to be tough for all of us, but mostly for Star. I so wish she didn’t have to go through this. I so wish I didn’t have to go through this. The waiting is going to be a nightmare.

So many fears trying to take over my mind, so many worries about the future. I just want to hold my little girl and make everything ok again. This is one boo boo mummy can’t kiss away.

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  1. May 2, 2014 / 7:16 pm

    Oh, this must be so hard, Anne. As you say, positive that something is being done, but, oh, to be able to fast forward the next couple of months and know that all is OK and it's all over with. I do hope all goes well x Thanks for sharing with #WotW

  2. May 2, 2014 / 7:49 pm

    I hope everything goes ok! Hugs to you both x

  3. May 2, 2014 / 9:32 pm

    Oh bless you, and her, this must be such a difficult time but as you say this is good news and will hopefully make a positive change for her. #wotw

  4. May 3, 2014 / 3:11 am

    Oh, Anne, I can only imagine how tough this is for you. I really hope it all goes well and that the surgery does what it needs to do x #WotW

  5. May 3, 2014 / 6:41 am

    Just reading about it is painful already and for a little girl? She is so brave and so are you. Goodluck and I hope that it will be okay. #wotw

  6. May 5, 2014 / 6:04 am

    Fingers crossed that all goes well and she gets the results you all want. Hopefully it's not too long a wait

  7. May 5, 2014 / 8:57 am

    How awful to see your baby suffering, and I can totally understand your word of the week! Crossing my fingers for you seems a little silly – but I am sending lots of love and positive thoughts your way!

  8. May 5, 2014 / 5:47 pm

    I really admire your positive attitude although it seems you have had a lot of practice; what a difficult journey Star has had to face and how brave she is. You must be so proud of her. I sincerely wish you all the best, I know how difficult it will be for you firstly waiting for that admissions date and then watching your daughter go through yet more procedures. God bless x

  9. May 7, 2014 / 11:09 am

    thinking of you. Stay positive and keep being brave just as your little girl is incredibly brave. will keep you all in our prayers over the coming weeks xxx

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