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Maybe last week I was a little too optimistic. I can’t seem to pull my family out of this slump of misery. The little ones are okay, in fact they’ve just had a fun weekend. But the adults are all grumpy and sad. We are in proper ‘Bah Humbug’ mode.
Maybe it’s the onset of winter that’s caused it, maybe it’s because Christmas is creeping up. It’s always been a difficult time of year for us.
I Go Up!
I am flitting from one mood to another. I’m happy because I have Christmas shopping done, even the food, including the turkey, is ordered. The kids are going to be overjoyed and I don’t think they’ll mind that they won’t have tons of presents to open, the ones they have are fabulous. The adults have also been bought some lovely gifts, I don’t think anyone will be disappointed this year.
I Go Down!
Then I’m sad because I can’t seem to help anyone feel happier. I am always trying to be positive, it’s important to start each day with a positive attitude otherwise you are just setting yourself up for a bad one. But am I really burying my head in the sand and ignoring the problems just so I can say I’m positive?
I’m not ignoring the problems, but I do feel as though I’ve exhausted any solutions I may have had. We go around and around in circles, the poison has been fed and I just can’t cleanse it, it won’t go away. It’s a ghost that haunts us forever.
Life is a roller coaster, you’ve just got to ride it! (Thanks Ronan.)
My cold is better, yay! I’m so glad to be rid of that. Sadly, all the illness I’ve had over the past couple of weeks have totally outed the good results I get from my IVIG treatment. Roll on next week for my next dose.
We haven’t had any more car accidents! Graham has his confidence back and is driving well but I’m still avoiding going out if I can. I’m a nervous wreck. I feel like I want my car back so I can drive myself again. That makes me nervous too, but at least I will be in control and it just might help me get over my fear. But the car is still in the garage and it looks like we may not get it back for a few more weeks.
We have the decorations up! Star and the Little Man really enjoyed putting the decorations on the tree and I haven’t changed it, it’s their work. Sadly, Boo was really upset we put it up without her. She’d gone for a fun day out with her friend and her Mum.
We had a fabulous day at Inflata Nation, a huge inflatable theme park which we were given tickets to review. It really is a lovely place and the kids were so excited. Sadly, Graham has started his neck hurting again from the bouncing (yes, adults are allowed in too!) And Star has hurt her foot, it was a risk taking her, but we can’t let her miss out on everything. She will heal, she generally does pretty quickly.
This is all just the daily stuff and already you can see the roller coaster is affecting us. I guess it’s just life, but I would like to get off for a little break now please.
Life is like a rollercoaster. There are times when I really feel I have everything in place. All the plates spinning. Then the next moment, it’s gone and I just want to hide. It’s even more tricky when you’ve others along for the ride, isn’t it? It is life and if I balance it all out, I’d rather have what I have, than not. Good that Graham has got his driving confidence back. I know I would have struggled with driving again. We all have something that can get us through. I’m very much a silver lining kind of person and by the sounds of it, so are you.
Yes, Cheryl, I do look for the silver linings, and I would never change what I have. I think our family dynamic of 4 adults and 3 children is a difficult one, despite having a big house. x
Sending love to you, I can imagine the anxiety and not being in control. Fingers crossed for you X #mixitup
Thanks Sam x
Oh no! Sending hugs. So sorry all the adults are not feeling happy.
I’m glad you have got rid of your cold.
That is a shame Graham and Star injured themselves at the inflatable park. x
Thanks Kim, Star is fine now, Graham is still a bit sore x
You are bound to have times that it is all too hard and coping with everyday is enough to wear you out alone. You are still doing brilliantly. You have rocked Christmas, we haven’t yet bought a single present, but we have made a LEGO Winter Village, which we haven’t managed for a couple of years, so we are doing well.
Try to take the time you need to re-energise now. The Christmas break will do us all good – we all need it – but if you need to start now then do so 🙂 xx
Thanks Jenny, congratulations on the Lego Winter village, that’s brilliant xx
Oh gosh I know that feeling! I hope it passes for you soon, thanks for linking up with #itsok xx
Thanks, I’m hoping for some more ups rather than downs to come x
Wish you the soonest recoovery!
Ah Anne …. it is a bit of a tricky bugger, life, eh? I think Christmas is a bit funny for an adult anyway, or an adult like me, in that you are being set up to be jolly and looking forward to all the pressies and the trimmings and the excess, really, and something in you smells a rat and thinks, this is a bit artificial or even bloody manipulative. Okay it’s just me. I’ll slink off now, Hope it all pulls together for you all Anne and you have a more than tolerable Christmas. #ItsOK
Thanks Enda, artificial and manipulative…I can tell you’re a parent of teens 🙂 It is definitely a bit of an anti-climax for adults, that’s for sure.
Life can definitely be up and down. It’s a cliche but the whole rollercoaster thing is definitely true. I hope things start to get better soon. #itsokay
Thank you, I’m sure it will get better soon x
It’s hard isn’t it when you’re trying to take care of everyone else.
It sure is, especially when some are old enough to look after themselves x
Sorry to hear of the rollercoaster ride you’re in. But as they say when you’re in a situation like that, it can only get better. Hope everything calms down soon. #keepingitreal
Thanks. I’m hoping it will be more ups than down real soon x
Well, I think you are truly amazing Anne. You deal with so much yet always take note of the positives. I hope Graham and Star are better now and that things start to look up for you all. Sending big hugs. x #MMBC
the positive sound really good and you should focus more on the achievements even if they seem small to others, they are huge to you
Hi Anne, I can totally relate to your post. I feel like I’m really struggling to stay positive and on top of things and it’s unlike me. Okay, I’m not so good at staying on top of things, but I’m usually good at seeing the positive. At the moment I feel like I’m wading through mud and it’s hard. I do wonder if (for me) it could be a time of life thing? Dwindling hormones and all that asI can’t think of any other explanation for it… You do sound organised for Christmas and sometimes less really is best (appreciated). This year we’ve gone minimum on presents as there is nothing much that my lot want, although my daughter has stated she is in desperate need of a coffee machine (rather that than alcohol)… It must have been a confidence knocker to have two accidents so close together, Graham is a trooper!… Putting up the Christmas decorations is usually a good spirit lifter even if you couldn’t keep everyone happy there either…. Hope the roller coaster comes to an end soon.
Thank you for linking up with #keepingitreal.
xx