Each month I join up with Cheryl from A Chronic Voice, to use her writing prompts to tell my readers about how I am coping with my health. The April writing prompts are; Returning, Understating, Distancing, Stressing and Celebrating.
These past couple of weeks I have returned to home schooling. This isn’t something new to me, I’ve done it four times before. However, I’ve only ever had to home educate one child at a time. Now I have three at home, aged 9, 12 and 14 years and it’s very different. The older two are very much left to their own devices, but I know my 14 yr old is having problems. The 9 year old needs lots of encouragement. It’s not been easy, but I’m trying not to put to much pressure on them or me. I’m no teacher!
So many people have understated the danger of this COVID-19 virus that has taken over the world. The government understated the importance of social distancing and staying home. And when the schools were closed a lot of British families took it as a chance of taking a holiday. The results of which will surely be evident very soon as the cases of the virus infections rise rapidly.
We decided to distance ourselves a little earlier because of my weak immune system. So the kids did not go to their last week of school. I’ve been keeping a diary of our isolation so I won’t go into that here.
When you are chronically ill though, staying home becomes the norm. I rarely go out anywhere. I find going out stressful and I’m rarely well enough. I felt so guilty when the kids had a week off for half term. We managed one day out shopping and that was it. I promised I’d make it up to them at Easter..but now we won’t be going anywhere until we are sure we are safe.
I distance myself from friends and family when I am not my best too. I don’t like them to see me too ill, I hide a lot of what I feel. But, I’m both lucky and unlucky. I have a big family at home, there are seven of us. This means I am never really alone, which is good in case I need help. But it also means I never really get any peace and quiet. I don’t mind being alone, I can cope without social interaction. But that’s never going to happen in this house.
Stress is a big factor in my illness, the more stressed I become the more ill I feel. When this whole COVID Pandemic started I felt the need to know everything, I spent ages watching television and reading about it. I felt the need for information, I needed to know everything, I wanted to be armed and ready. Instead I overdid it and stressed myself so much I made myself physically sick.
Now, I’m keeping my stress levels down by limiting my news and learning about the virus and choosing mindful activities instead. I’m still worried, but no longer stressing.
Oh my, Easter is my favourite time of year, two weeks off school and loads of chocolate. It’s going to be so different this year. We are not going to be able to go to the farm to see the baby animals or enjoy days out in the warmer weather. I’ve bought Easter Eggs nice and early so the kids (and grown ups) will get their chocolate treats. They also have eggs off my brother and his wife which they exchanged before the lock down.
Spring is coming, we’ve had some sunshine and I can see the leaves on the trees at the bottom of my garden started to appear. I love to celebrate the changes in the Seasons which involve lots of colour changes. I love to celebrate the new life that Spring brings too. But these celebrations are not the same with that big dark cloud of COVID-19 hanging over us. I know one thing, I will celebrate when it’s over and life can return to normal, or whatever new normal we will have to endure.
April Writing Prompts
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